MMM: Baby Love

The other night, I was rocking Zeke to sleep and he burped right in my face... and, in all seriousness, I loved the smell. It was almost euphoric. And I thought to myself, how can this be? How can I love such a small, tiny person who cries and burps in my face ... how can I love him SO MUCH? It's almost surreal and my heart sometimes hurts from loving him so much. I had ideas of what motherhood might be like. I knew my life would be changed. I knew it would be difficult. I knew we'd be waking up in the night and not getting enough sleep (some people claim for the rest of your lives!). But yet people do it... we have kids. We raise them and love them and take care of them despite of all the work. How do we do it? Because of this deep, intense love for them. It's really inexplainable... at least at this point I don't think I fully understand it. It just is. A fact. I love my baby boy.


Since I can't give a better explanation, I'm going to list some of the things I love about him.

I love that he spends time in his bouncer, just cooing and being happy. Sometimes it's not just too long, but he's been in there for nearly an hour before! It is so nice to have him awake, happy, and entertaining himself because I can get some things done.

I love when he smiles. Whether he's awake or it's in his sleep, it is one of the sweetest things I've ever seen.

He seems to really enjoy the outdoors. I take him out for walks in the Baby B'Jorn and nearly every time he enjoys it. Sometimes if he's been crying it will calm him down. He likes to look around and I like to believe he's taking in all the sights of his new surroundings.

His poop face. I know, it sounds weird, and, sadly, it's disappearing already. But when he was first born, he made the absolute CUTEST face when he was pooping. I wish I had been able to capture it on camera.

His curly hair. It's not showing up all the time yet, but after his bath he has curls and I am believing that one day they will decide to stay around even when his hair's dry. His hair also has a red tint in some light!

His eyes. They're really starting to focus on my face (and others) now. They are deeply blue and beautiful. I could stare into them for a long time.

He is doing a great job when we go out and about. Nearly every time I'm afraid that the lights will be too bright or it will be too noisy in the restaurant or store, he plumb falls asleep! I'm grateful he seems to adapt to his surroundings so well. He's doing better and better riding in his car seat too!

I love just sitting and rocking him. I love holding him and feeling him snuggle into my neck. Or when his little hands grab onto my neck or stomach. It is such a precious feeling knowing he wants to be near me.


This guy's changing our lives, and I couldn't be happier.

To life... full of sweet baby burps.